yeahh
yeah man bro...maybe u're right. im always befuddled with the word communication. yes, many times im not the best person who conveys my emotions openly.
i dunno, i think i didnt used to be like that say in sec1 or 2? i think it was this thing called pride, or the male ego that's always stopping me from doing that sometimes...or that point where i don't want to be 'wrong', i wanna be perfect...i dun wanna say the wrong things u know? i really suck at this i know. or sometimes, just sometimes, no infact, about ALL the time when i don't talk. my mind is simply just a blank. searching for the right words to say has become the norm in these kind of situations..and i think i just end up being the shallow person that i am. i thot starting a blog would help me convey these thots better, but somehow it tends to fail in the end when it becomes public, so public that i can't do it anymore.
maybe im hiding things because im a fucked up and weird person. in fact, to come to think of it, im bloody selfish and self centered, but sometimes i choose not to show that side of me to the world. also, im very childish and i like to do stupid things. sometimes i really think if im autistic. u see, im not even making any sense now. i dunno. i cant talk about 'serious' stuff. because i am indeed a very shallow person. all i ever do when i meet up with friends is just pure talk cock.
well. its been a weird night last night, what with colin typing the posts and all, and seeing him this morning and i had absolutely no idea he just blogged..so sorry man bro.
well. u guys wanna noe what's weirder? i called liana last night. and we talked. because i was thinking about what the fuck was happening to me, in my life in general and not just a relationship with a girl alone. and yeah, well, the magic's still there. and all im saying here is that we just clicked for that short while. yeah that's all. for all i know, the next time i meet her, i may not be even able to do that.
thinking about this just makes me want to cry. (im not referring to liana by the way)
jack.
i dunno, i think i didnt used to be like that say in sec1 or 2? i think it was this thing called pride, or the male ego that's always stopping me from doing that sometimes...or that point where i don't want to be 'wrong', i wanna be perfect...i dun wanna say the wrong things u know? i really suck at this i know. or sometimes, just sometimes, no infact, about ALL the time when i don't talk. my mind is simply just a blank. searching for the right words to say has become the norm in these kind of situations..and i think i just end up being the shallow person that i am. i thot starting a blog would help me convey these thots better, but somehow it tends to fail in the end when it becomes public, so public that i can't do it anymore.
maybe im hiding things because im a fucked up and weird person. in fact, to come to think of it, im bloody selfish and self centered, but sometimes i choose not to show that side of me to the world. also, im very childish and i like to do stupid things. sometimes i really think if im autistic. u see, im not even making any sense now. i dunno. i cant talk about 'serious' stuff. because i am indeed a very shallow person. all i ever do when i meet up with friends is just pure talk cock.
well. its been a weird night last night, what with colin typing the posts and all, and seeing him this morning and i had absolutely no idea he just blogged..so sorry man bro.
well. u guys wanna noe what's weirder? i called liana last night. and we talked. because i was thinking about what the fuck was happening to me, in my life in general and not just a relationship with a girl alone. and yeah, well, the magic's still there. and all im saying here is that we just clicked for that short while. yeah that's all. for all i know, the next time i meet her, i may not be even able to do that.
thinking about this just makes me want to cry. (im not referring to liana by the way)
jack.
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