Suddenly other things just seem so trivial and not important anymore.

Sometimes things happen which make u realise every other fucking problem you think you had seem trivial.

My Dad has just been diagnosed with colon cancer.

Im shattered, Im lost and I want to be alone.

I know the brothers will want to say consolating words and hopeful encouragements to me now but I really dont know how to response to them. I dont want to put on a brave front and pretend everything is okay.

Lets keep it within the brothers for now while I come to terms with it and understand his full condition.

Wanker.