The Balcony

what a fantastic day. i gotta say.
woke up..
went for lunch with Ron and Jourdan at Suntec. pretty nice porridge buffet. too bad no free flow of drinks. but everything else was good, including the company.
BENtley is working at NUM at citylink. nice to meet a familiar face. he's a real man, a real fren.

nway. back home.. slept.
chatted with yk on the phone and the best suprise in the world.
an invitation from HER to go out.
and my heart went pitty patty again.
well so went out i did.
to the balcony.
she was real pretty. to ME anyway.
and real nice too.
but well. there was a certain smtg lacking. chemistry? intimacy? i dunno
she's jst such a super nice person i dunno to feel special or not. she's that nice to everyone else.
she stopped being a goddess in my mind, to being a normal human being.
out of 10 i guess this night out scores a 6?
of course the fact that she asked me to go out is already fantastic in itself..
but i jst wish there's smtg more substantial.
the last part was especially average i guess.
now if there was a SIGN. that i'm doing things right. now. this date would have been an 8. and if the next date was fixed. this date'd have been perfect hahaha.
but oh well. we'll see how things turn out.

but i think she's.... what i've been searching for. serious. i can picture myself with her 5 years from now. 10 years maybe. beyond that.. i cant even picture myself.
well. we'll see how things turn out.
i'm expecting the worst. but secretly hoping for the best.
hunter out.