farewell.

my brudders4. for a month plus u'll be short of 01 X brudder. so brudders5 will now be a brudders(-) section. as u should know by now i'll be away at thailand for atec. so u all take care will ya? sorry unable to meet up with u guys. deep down i still love u all. u know it. msg me anytime over there. i can i sure reply. yeah?

-hugs- to all.

sian one half.

knn no one blog as usual. i am the only bored free fuck bo liao enough to blog
nway the audition kanna sai lah. def not the best that we can be. but well. we'll see how it turns out.

discovered the wonder of internet radio.
and found this in WMP...it's called pulsradio. KNN really REALLY NONSTOP dance music i listen until i also want to go mad liao.
then i can also listen to my wkrz as i play my maple. haha heaven...

yesterday the audition like fuck. run here run there. by the time the prelim come all damn shag liao. oh well. today results out. see how lah. in or out... i also ok wan. got free LIME goodie bag!
so... net ... Gain!!

haha.

dinner with chalene. fucking good time lah. then turns out mike is working at i21. such a pleasant suprise. and chalene's sister is so chio. haha. nway i'm jst looking forward to her bdae party lah. it'll be good to see limin and everyone again.

aiya sian. go liao. byE.

Me?

haha knn of course i feel the same man.
but nowadays less so ba.
it helps that i've sorta been rejected by everyone that even have slight potential.
so i also ABIT sian diao liao.

i'm jst cruising along, happy with my time...
alternating my time between family, maple, black star militia, brudders, army, friends.
sounds like an awful shit lot eh? maybe it is. so ttts why i don feel so bad.

nway we going U soon lah. maybe we'll be lucky like jack jack

to 21 lonesome wanking years of our lives.

but because we are the famous brudders5, when we come together, we(or wanker) will no more be lonely or lonesome.

Hunter has a point, i really do fall under the category of "having to keep my chin up". I have just been disturbed/sort of like knots inside the heart. can't and dunno really how to explain it to u guys, perhaps when events take a turn and become concrete or don't become concrete and the time is right i will say. Really haven't felt very good recently, if not for my men/specs who r really my biggest source of motivation now, i am really running high dry on drive and morale. In front of ppl my morale is there, i do need to portray a motivated image so my guys won't fall. but inside it's really tiring and demanding. dunno whats wrong...maybe just one of those bad times. Bless me.

Ok i don;t mind changing the call sign... but its u guys who have to assign it ma.

Ok second time, i think colin's birthday was a bit mellowed till the end when only the guys were left, all the shit from our mouths... funny to the bunny man.

Miss the feeling of having someone i love in my arms, hugging and protecting her and knowing she feels the same and all we wanna do is just to spend whatever time we have together... Hunter how about u? the other 3 should be in this ideal situation now. happy for u guys... i look at u guys but at times i see a mirror asking myself back "how about u?" haha. love.

Dear all.

recent spate of lousy events. but dont let them keep you down.
look on the bright side.
chewwie's decided to quit smoking
wanker's 21st bdae bash is coming
hunter's started playing maple story (and becoming more and more pathetic :\ )
Jack jack's madly in love
and zosters... well. his LRI's over right. haha

eh. zoster maybe time to change ur call sign right.
i dunno.
nway i go and maple liao.
everybody.
keep ur fucking chin up.

happy new year.....?

dear famousfives.. firstly.. let me wish u all a happy new year.. altho things not so happy have been happening lately. Sorry if i've been MIA for the first week of this yr.. my father went for operation.. yea. again. same wound.. different complications. took off from boss lst thurs for FRI and TODAY so i can take some time to jus be with my father.. not that i can be of much help to those fucking big wounds tho. Fucking hell. i saw the wound myself and it was pure pain when it hits your eyes. Fucking big. a diameter of 3-4cm .. open wound. CCB. thank all the GODs for my father's recovering condition now.. but he's due for another op in 2 weeks. and guess he'll be weak again. fuck la. then came another bad news.

one of my juniors got injured in a rugby match and was admitted to hospital. fractured spine. dislocation of spine. nerves damaged. temporarily paralysed. etc. etc. all these were mentioned. how true still unconfirmed. but one thing is confirmed. my brother lying on the bed in the ICU ward is in pain. fucking pain. sigh. din noe wad to say. went to see him. from chest down he couldnt feel a thing. he tried talking but all i could hear was the beeping from the machines attached to my man thru long transparent pipes. fucking hell. lets all pray for him. for his speedy recovery. for his ability to jus be himself again. i want to scold him again for being late for touch rugby. i'd still want to pass him the ball and watch him knock it on. i would still wanna see him run aimlessly with wrong timings to the breakdowns. i wanna see him. stand up again. bro i'll be praying and waiting.

i guess.. health is wealth. and my fucking new year resolution. I'M GONNA QUIT SMOKING. baby.. i will not buy another pack of cigarettes. swear to my fucking balls. and brothers. pls pls help me. hunter im sorry for all the times i pissed u off when i smoked. i know u are pissed becos u care. wanker and jackjack i know u guys want me to quit too. reallie reallie now im set to quit. IM ANNOUNCING TO THE WORLD. YEOW KUAN IS QUITTING SMOKING.zosters. quit with me man. come on. together. it will take some time and effort but it will happen! tried and tested bro. i used to smoke a pack a day.. now cut down to just 2 sticks a day.. its coming. i can feel it man. brothers. pls help me by not doubting my efforts.. i can do it!

okay.. so my top 3 resolutions for 2006..

1) QUIT SMOKING TOTALLY.
2) GET MY FUCKING DRIVING LICENSE.
3) GET MY FUCKING VAN.

guess all of us should get some written down too?
well.. guess the new year din start off too happily for me.. hope everythings going well for my bros.. and their families.. reallie. FAMILY HEALTH IS WEALTH. thats wad i saw on the plastic bag of an old lady on the bus.. when i was on the way to NUH to visit my junior.. lets look forward to CHINESE NEW YEAR.. and hope the DOG YEAR WILL BE BETTER THAN THE CHICKEN YEAR! hah.

okay bros.. hope my father gets over this stage of his life safely and my mother dun worry so much plus my sister dun get bullied at work for her intern and my junior.. to be able to.. walk again.

-chewbacca-

30th dec 05

well it was a blast... it was a blast. i think it was something so different, so fun, enjoyable and memorable for all of us and our dates for sure. For once, whatever rules... rule of 4 of 5... did not hinder the brudders5. albeit some of us either did not have a real "loved" one in that sense or brought potential "loved ones" it didn't matter. everything just went nice... though kuku was quite jiaoed by some of u all after dinner haha. but it was good it was good... no complaints at all.

Thanks to u 4. Thanks Wanker for being such a good chef, with all the necessary housemaking husband skills, your future wife will be so lucky i tell u. Thanks Hunter most imptly for loaning us your MILF pad and time and of course MILF Mobile which had to rest for one day from to ferry our babes. I think HB is really nice, if ever got sparks...u know we will support u. Thanks KUKU for your usual dose of rugger amusement, humour and vulgarities. You are the light of the party man, so brash and unassuming. Thanks lastly to Baha, for coordinating it all(though not much haha), and for always having the same wavelengths and aspirations/ideals as I and showing the support that i need at times. Really happy to see amanda and u so strong, so loving.

Thanks to all once more. I love u, don't let this brudderhood die out, dun be angry at one another at times maybe for petty nonsense that i admit i have committed many times. Don't take for granted a treasured relationship for what seems beautiful on the outside might have cracks on the inside if not addressed or left aside. Merry Christmas to u once more and a very happy new year. I'll be flying off soon on 01FEB to Thailand for ATEC, Jo will be flying off either this week or next and once again i'll be in that sian mood again. So long already yet somehow the love for her still burns as if it were a few years back. And i can't describe how much i just cherish whatever time we have when she's back. Well that's just me.

Gdnite babies.