to 21 lonesome wanking years of our lives.

but because we are the famous brudders5, when we come together, we(or wanker) will no more be lonely or lonesome.

Hunter has a point, i really do fall under the category of "having to keep my chin up". I have just been disturbed/sort of like knots inside the heart. can't and dunno really how to explain it to u guys, perhaps when events take a turn and become concrete or don't become concrete and the time is right i will say. Really haven't felt very good recently, if not for my men/specs who r really my biggest source of motivation now, i am really running high dry on drive and morale. In front of ppl my morale is there, i do need to portray a motivated image so my guys won't fall. but inside it's really tiring and demanding. dunno whats wrong...maybe just one of those bad times. Bless me.

Ok i don;t mind changing the call sign... but its u guys who have to assign it ma.

Ok second time, i think colin's birthday was a bit mellowed till the end when only the guys were left, all the shit from our mouths... funny to the bunny man.

Miss the feeling of having someone i love in my arms, hugging and protecting her and knowing she feels the same and all we wanna do is just to spend whatever time we have together... Hunter how about u? the other 3 should be in this ideal situation now. happy for u guys... i look at u guys but at times i see a mirror asking myself back "how about u?" haha. love.